An Expression of Your Self Which Has Never Been Lived Before
You have been calibrating and there have been a number of subtle attunements occurring on many levels. Your cells have been acclimatizing to new energies that you are in touch with and bringing into being. The changing frequencies on the planet and the changing frequencies within your beings are allowing for more so of an ability to bring into form energies that have not been on the planet previously. It means an expression of self that has never been seen or experienced in your forms before. It seems as if it would be an absolutely easy and natural thing for most humans to be them selves, however, it has become a convoluted struggle filled process for most. It is not unreasonable to need assistance with the process and application of the expanded expression of who you are.
It is encouraged to engage in a daily practice of awareness and increasing receptivity. It is recognized how easy it is, with a human physiology, to fall back into patterns and habits of old beliefs, even when the belief has been released. It is somewhat akin to injuring, or losing a limb. Initially, there is still the inclination to do things in the manner in which they've always been done, even though it is impossible to do so in quite the same way. The brain may even behave as if the limb still exists. It takes practice to integrate and incorporate the new habits of a different belief and way of being.
The current reality, when not being fully enjoyed, can be a strong deterrent in being able to fix your focus on what you desire, as well as, become a strong enforcer of doubt. When in pursuit of one's desirings, doubt is often given too much power as a purveyor of verity. If you have been enjoying a segment of your time, and doubt starts to creep in about the love, goodness or abundance lasting, then it is an indication that a limiting belief is in play creating a schism between who you really are and how you think you should be. This incongruency of self with Self always feels unpleasant and is a signal that your thoughts and ensuing emotions are heading in a direction of resistance and struggle.
For many on the planet, enjoyment and suffering have been intertwined, due to the belief that enjoyment can only come out of pain. It is seen as a reward or relief, rather than a state unto itself. So many on the Earth plane are not aware of, and do not practice, change as a functional state of evolution. The motivation for changing beliefs and behaviours typically come out of some version of unhappiness with the current state of affairs. There often needs to be a strong or intensely unpleasant catalyst for you to really begin to transform some element of your selves or your lives in order for an easing to occur. In this case, doubt can play a pivotal role for the better, if it is used as an encouragement to question the beliefs that have resulted in unwanted themes of experiences in your life.
The current shifts are allowing for the possibility of more ease than ever before in living your desires. This works in conjunction with your growing awareness that upon which you focus creates your experience. Once you have fully recognized that your experiences are based on what YOU are vibrating, then the world is your oyster, as the saying goes. There is still the wanting to argue for your limitations by wanting to present proof of why that isn't so and that the real culprits of unpleasantness are the others in your lives. There has been centuries worth of unnecessary struggle due to seeing an other (including a godhead) as the limiter or purveyor of goodness in one's life. It has been one of the longest held and most largely perpetuated disempowering myths on the planet. The ongoing belief in, and the challenging of, is currently being played out in so many ways within your current timeline upon the Earth plane.
Do not wait for the other shoe to drop, as there does not have to be one. Be aware of your expectations, especially during this delicate time of new growth. With practice it becomes the norm to expect the best, because the more you expect it, the more it is so, until it just is. There is a frisson of wanting to doubt what is changing and what is possible and the encouragement is to 'stay the course' which you have begun. It is important to nurture the growing trust of your selves and of how creation actually works.
Allowing your selves to be loved as who you are has been a challenge as you have been trying to be something you are not. Know that when you are feeling negatively that you are creating a distance between self and Self and diminishing your sense of wholeness and lovability. It is an indication that you are trying to make true something which is not. You are trying to make true, or prove, some story about your self which is not rooted in wholeness. Common story themes include not being enough and therefore not worthy of love. The amount of effort, time and energy that goes into proving and justifying this, or similar stances, never feels good.
Explore the various methods that find their way to you, which enhance your ability to be fully you in all of its wondrous wholeness. That you isn't "if and when", it is always right here, right now, ever evolving.